21st Sept.
Its been a long time. Feeling restless and helpless. Am i really that dumb. When can someone really can helps me to undergo my problem. Feeling restless.
Feeling so useless.
Wei Mun is officially breaking itself into pieces.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Super sad!
1st September,
Why every time is me? Why must to be me? Really feel sad when this thing happens to me. Am i just a toy? Why everyone also so mean to me.
Do i look like easily get bullied? I really feel hurt on what you had done to me.
I am so naive on everything. When this thing happens to me, i feel happy but indeed i don't know what was happening on between. Fine. I will never trust any of them. Feel sick of anyone of you.
Why every time is me? Why must to be me? Really feel sad when this thing happens to me. Am i just a toy? Why everyone also so mean to me.
Do i look like easily get bullied? I really feel hurt on what you had done to me.
I am so naive on everything. When this thing happens to me, i feel happy but indeed i don't know what was happening on between. Fine. I will never trust any of them. Feel sick of anyone of you.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Dating with dad
21st August,
Wooh, i hardly can open my eyes. A very good morning. Hello to the world. Is another weekends. I will plan my weekends well. After working over time for consecutively 3 days. I am much tired and exhausted. Although is a very normal situation but for me is very unusual. This is because i have never been Over time for 2 months. Hopefully next week no OT for me anymore.
My dad came in, and sat next to me. He asked me to tear off the Road tax and replaced with a new one and also helps him to get back his phone. I am just hardly to open my eyes and i keep blink my eyes as a signal for him that i agree to help him.
Boring, my brother went out and left me alone for lunch. But anyway i text my best friend to company me for lunch. But rejected. Quite sad. Never mind. My brother called and will buy for me. No need to worry for my lunch.
3.00PM
Going out to find Poh Sze and Lee Miin for tea session. We went to ABC and of course I have been craving for long time to eat the maggie goreng at ABC. However, only i found that the foods were sucks and very small portion. Not worth it. No more next time. Then we went to Jusco Balakong to search for my facial wash. Finally i decided to buy cetaphil to try.
8.00pm
Going out to eat "Bak Kut Teh" with my dad. Dinner with him as my mom don't want to go. We had our Bak Kut Teh at pudu there. It's been our favorite restaurant since young. However, the taste already differs from previous. Quite disappointed indeed. After the dinner, we went to night market for a walk. Then i saw Angry Bird lantern! SO damn "yeng".
Wooh, i hardly can open my eyes. A very good morning. Hello to the world. Is another weekends. I will plan my weekends well. After working over time for consecutively 3 days. I am much tired and exhausted. Although is a very normal situation but for me is very unusual. This is because i have never been Over time for 2 months. Hopefully next week no OT for me anymore.
My dad came in, and sat next to me. He asked me to tear off the Road tax and replaced with a new one and also helps him to get back his phone. I am just hardly to open my eyes and i keep blink my eyes as a signal for him that i agree to help him.
Boring, my brother went out and left me alone for lunch. But anyway i text my best friend to company me for lunch. But rejected. Quite sad. Never mind. My brother called and will buy for me. No need to worry for my lunch.
3.00PM
Going out to find Poh Sze and Lee Miin for tea session. We went to ABC and of course I have been craving for long time to eat the maggie goreng at ABC. However, only i found that the foods were sucks and very small portion. Not worth it. No more next time. Then we went to Jusco Balakong to search for my facial wash. Finally i decided to buy cetaphil to try.
8.00pm
Going out to eat "Bak Kut Teh" with my dad. Dinner with him as my mom don't want to go. We had our Bak Kut Teh at pudu there. It's been our favorite restaurant since young. However, the taste already differs from previous. Quite disappointed indeed. After the dinner, we went to night market for a walk. Then i saw Angry Bird lantern! SO damn "yeng".
~THE END~
Thursday, August 11, 2011
A gathering
11th August,
So boring. Long time didn't post any on my blog. So i decided to blog something on last week gathering. Seems like been a long time we never gather. I shall put before and after to show the truth that we're prettier ha-ha. We're looking different compare to last time. More mature and prettier i guess. Well we gather at Kuchai Lama and eat at the Taipei Walker. The foods was so so only. But we enjoyed shopping along the boutique at Kuchai Lama.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
2 Months of working
10th August,
Night. 2 months already passed. Why i still can't even master my job? Am i dumb? Why am i keep making mistakes?
I am so stress. Everyday is like a challenge for me. Everyday facing troubles. Can i skip those troubles? I really need help. An angel falls from heaven.
Night. 2 months already passed. Why i still can't even master my job? Am i dumb? Why am i keep making mistakes?
I am so stress. Everyday is like a challenge for me. Everyday facing troubles. Can i skip those troubles? I really need help. An angel falls from heaven.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
First Week!!!!
8th June,
I am so stress!
The first day, i am so nervous, i can't even slept well. I just feeling excited. In the first day, i thought sure got another newbies and is a GUY! Haha. Really excited if is a guy!. But no.Sigh. Is a girl!.How?
Just got to accept the fact. I am going to be single in my life. A bit scare. Sigh. This feeling is more worst. I barely see my colleague i mean others colleague. The first day, just sit at the corner. I think i was been misplaced.
2nd day,
I was so surprised! I thought that was my permanent place. However, get placed to an isolated place. Far from my credit analyst team. Just my own at that place! I feel like want to strangle myself! Feeling being isolated. However, it was fine for me. Just take it easy! And be cool.. Everything will be normal!
3rd day,
I scared of alone. I don't know who should be my permanent lunchmate. I guess can tomorrow my lunch mate appears front of me? Hope there will be a savior save me from my lunch period!.
God i just need a lunch mate and a good mate who i can rely on. But where can i find it? Can anybody tells me? I just so clueless.
I am so stress!
The first day, i am so nervous, i can't even slept well. I just feeling excited. In the first day, i thought sure got another newbies and is a GUY! Haha. Really excited if is a guy!. But no.Sigh. Is a girl!.How?
Just got to accept the fact. I am going to be single in my life. A bit scare. Sigh. This feeling is more worst. I barely see my colleague i mean others colleague. The first day, just sit at the corner. I think i was been misplaced.
2nd day,
I was so surprised! I thought that was my permanent place. However, get placed to an isolated place. Far from my credit analyst team. Just my own at that place! I feel like want to strangle myself! Feeling being isolated. However, it was fine for me. Just take it easy! And be cool.. Everything will be normal!
3rd day,
I scared of alone. I don't know who should be my permanent lunchmate. I guess can tomorrow my lunch mate appears front of me? Hope there will be a savior save me from my lunch period!.
God i just need a lunch mate and a good mate who i can rely on. But where can i find it? Can anybody tells me? I just so clueless.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Eating disorder
8th Jan,
Eating disorder. What is eating disorder? Eating disorder means you skip every meal and eating time is disorder. I guess, i eat disorderly again. Every time i eat, i feel guilty, and also try not to eat on the morning. Around 11 a.m i think consider lunch, i eat oat. Oat. Is oat. Sigh, i eat oat on the morning till dinner. Dinner time, i feel hungry, and my stomach not feeling so well. Perhaps is eating disorderly. Sigh, At night, i eat a lot.
After eating, i feel like guilty and wish to vomit out the foods. Sigh. If i still feel guilty, i think i will be aneroksia soon.
Eating disorder. What is eating disorder? Eating disorder means you skip every meal and eating time is disorder. I guess, i eat disorderly again. Every time i eat, i feel guilty, and also try not to eat on the morning. Around 11 a.m i think consider lunch, i eat oat. Oat. Is oat. Sigh, i eat oat on the morning till dinner. Dinner time, i feel hungry, and my stomach not feeling so well. Perhaps is eating disorderly. Sigh, At night, i eat a lot.
After eating, i feel like guilty and wish to vomit out the foods. Sigh. If i still feel guilty, i think i will be aneroksia soon.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Christmas eve
29th Dec,
Although a bit late, i think late for four days but never mind. I'm gonna continue to write inside my blog.
It was a windy night. The weather was really going to kill you. Okay, at night i fetch my bestiest to the Korean BBQ to meet up with others. Well, we went to Sri Petaling Korean BBQ. The restaurant is located behind the Allisan Cafe. Precisely is behind the Dim Sum place there.
Firstly, i don't like korean food at all. All spicy and sour. Well, but anyway i'm going to try it although i don't like it.
Here is the foods that we had ordered!.
Give me some beat!Haha
Here is the group picture!
Although a bit late, i think late for four days but never mind. I'm gonna continue to write inside my blog.
It was a windy night. The weather was really going to kill you. Okay, at night i fetch my bestiest to the Korean BBQ to meet up with others. Well, we went to Sri Petaling Korean BBQ. The restaurant is located behind the Allisan Cafe. Precisely is behind the Dim Sum place there.
Firstly, i don't like korean food at all. All spicy and sour. Well, but anyway i'm going to try it although i don't like it.
Here is the foods that we had ordered!.
Give me some beat!Haha
Here is the group picture!
Anyway i miss my long hair much...
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Finished.
28th Dec,
Yeay finally i finished the card. My only D.I.Y card.
Here is the front!
Yeay finally i finished the card. My only D.I.Y card.
Here is the front!
Although a bit not nice, but this is my first attempt on making a card. I guess, this can be shown that i'm really not an artistic person!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Transformation of Ms Loke
Hello everyone,
The new me, my name is bla bla bla...It's been freaking me out when i look at my old photos. I see my childhood picture. I felt a bit weird, how come i changed much, is it due to the environment? Ha-ha when i look back feels so funny.
My 2nd Brother and me!
Is me and my fav bear bear ( the bear is germany bear)
My kindergarten graduation picture!
Me (current)
The new me, my name is bla bla bla...It's been freaking me out when i look at my old photos. I see my childhood picture. I felt a bit weird, how come i changed much, is it due to the environment? Ha-ha when i look back feels so funny.
My 2nd Brother and me!
Is me and my fav bear bear ( the bear is germany bear)
My kindergarten graduation picture!
Me (current)
Really lots of changes right? Shock le ma??ha-ha me also shock dy...ha-ha...become more prettier ha-ha..
Christmas night
25th December,
It's 0.12 a.m, when everyone is happy celebrate their christmas night, i feel like crying. I know it is a bit unbelievable as i really want to cry right now. Is an emo night for me. I really don't know why? Perhaps is a feeling as i haven't cry for a long time.
Anyway, Merry Christmas to all my friend!
It's 0.12 a.m, when everyone is happy celebrate their christmas night, i feel like crying. I know it is a bit unbelievable as i really want to cry right now. Is an emo night for me. I really don't know why? Perhaps is a feeling as i haven't cry for a long time.
Anyway, Merry Christmas to all my friend!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Snake inside the market.
17th September,
This is the first time i drive my mum to Tesco to buy some groceries. Although is just a small distance from my home to supermarket. But it is meaningful, as my mum frightened by my parking skill. Well, she is more nervous than i do.
I admit that my parking skill still need to be improve but somehow, i didn't hit others car. Isn't that should be praise? Ha-ha. When i walking towards the escalator, i saw one cute little boy hang the snake on his neck. The snake is of course REAL, is not a rubber snake. OK! I'm stunned. I couldn't believe in the mall got a snake. I'm gonna to faint soon.
My body was like freezing, the snake looks awkful and sticky. I could not use other than awkful to describe it. What the.. is going on, having a snake in the middle of the mall? It is dangerous to the pure and innocent citizens such as me. I was curious how come the children can be so excited when see the snake. Fine, i don't care, i continued my way. My mum was searching for my dog's cushion. But, not much cushion can be chose as only left a few. Sigh, sorry that you don't have a new cushion to sleep. It was so crowd inside the mall. Where is those people come from? Perhaps today is holiday. Sigh boring.
We spent almost 3 hours to buy our groceries. So headache.
This is the first time i drive my mum to Tesco to buy some groceries. Although is just a small distance from my home to supermarket. But it is meaningful, as my mum frightened by my parking skill. Well, she is more nervous than i do.
I admit that my parking skill still need to be improve but somehow, i didn't hit others car. Isn't that should be praise? Ha-ha. When i walking towards the escalator, i saw one cute little boy hang the snake on his neck. The snake is of course REAL, is not a rubber snake. OK! I'm stunned. I couldn't believe in the mall got a snake. I'm gonna to faint soon.
My body was like freezing, the snake looks awkful and sticky. I could not use other than awkful to describe it. What the.. is going on, having a snake in the middle of the mall? It is dangerous to the pure and innocent citizens such as me. I was curious how come the children can be so excited when see the snake. Fine, i don't care, i continued my way. My mum was searching for my dog's cushion. But, not much cushion can be chose as only left a few. Sigh, sorry that you don't have a new cushion to sleep. It was so crowd inside the mall. Where is those people come from? Perhaps today is holiday. Sigh boring.
We spent almost 3 hours to buy our groceries. So headache.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Craps
Is freaking insane. I don't have any idea to write about the introduction and also literature review. How can i pass up on time? I just sigh+ing but didn't do anything. I just get nothing. Craps.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Tired tired tired tired
18th June,
Yesterday, a bit tired, my eyes getting worse, i think i need to seek for optometrist. I've been doing the cover sheet for almost 4 hours non stop. I felt a bit dizzy and also blur. My colleague asked me to level 16 to retrieve files for PIC on level 2. I going there and asked Serena to retrieve the form, then she asked me to find inside the room.
Fine, then i went to to the room and started to find, but i felt the room was so dusty and felt like it was likely a store room. Sigh, got to dig the file from the dusty room. My eyes getting soar. My tears started to roll down.
Finally, i found the form. Yahooo!Finally i found it!Then i quickly photocopy the form, but i am too stupid to use the photostat machine. I don't know where to press the log in and out button eventhough i knew the password. Luckily, someone passby the machine there, and i seek for his help. That person is Black face people. He is the one always show his black face at me, and felt like i owe him more than a hundred thousands. Gosh, feel like i'm not in a good luck. Okay, fine!Then i quickly to level 2 to hand in the documents. But luck was really not on my side, Mr T. was not there. I am so tired, my eyes getting red, and the tears roll non stop. Sigh, i stand at the corner to wait for Mr. T to come back so i can hands the document to him. One of the RM asked me what i am doing there, I just answered her that i was waiting for Mr. T. Sigh. Then another Mr T. passby and asked me,why am i crying? Why i am crying? Gosh, i am not crying at all. I just said no i'm not crying! But he keep ask me why i cry! Fine i said my eyes got infection or something like that. Okay!
Then i think of handed the document to Mr. T so he can pass to another Mr.T. Then he said, Oh, you helping him to retrieve the form, i also need you to retrieve the form as well. I glanced at him and said I don't want I don't want you go and retrieve yourself please. And he asked why and said got ghost?? I said No, the room such as store room, i don't want to retrieve!
Then, i went back to my level 42 and then sat down and rest! I don't felt like moving to anywhere.Luckily i had another 1weeks plus and i will had my holiday. Yeah.
Yesterday, a bit tired, my eyes getting worse, i think i need to seek for optometrist. I've been doing the cover sheet for almost 4 hours non stop. I felt a bit dizzy and also blur. My colleague asked me to level 16 to retrieve files for PIC on level 2. I going there and asked Serena to retrieve the form, then she asked me to find inside the room.
Fine, then i went to to the room and started to find, but i felt the room was so dusty and felt like it was likely a store room. Sigh, got to dig the file from the dusty room. My eyes getting soar. My tears started to roll down.
Finally, i found the form. Yahooo!Finally i found it!Then i quickly photocopy the form, but i am too stupid to use the photostat machine. I don't know where to press the log in and out button eventhough i knew the password. Luckily, someone passby the machine there, and i seek for his help. That person is Black face people. He is the one always show his black face at me, and felt like i owe him more than a hundred thousands. Gosh, feel like i'm not in a good luck. Okay, fine!Then i quickly to level 2 to hand in the documents. But luck was really not on my side, Mr T. was not there. I am so tired, my eyes getting red, and the tears roll non stop. Sigh, i stand at the corner to wait for Mr. T to come back so i can hands the document to him. One of the RM asked me what i am doing there, I just answered her that i was waiting for Mr. T. Sigh. Then another Mr T. passby and asked me,why am i crying? Why i am crying? Gosh, i am not crying at all. I just said no i'm not crying! But he keep ask me why i cry! Fine i said my eyes got infection or something like that. Okay!
Then i think of handed the document to Mr. T so he can pass to another Mr.T. Then he said, Oh, you helping him to retrieve the form, i also need you to retrieve the form as well. I glanced at him and said I don't want I don't want you go and retrieve yourself please. And he asked why and said got ghost?? I said No, the room such as store room, i don't want to retrieve!
Then, i went back to my level 42 and then sat down and rest! I don't felt like moving to anywhere.Luckily i had another 1weeks plus and i will had my holiday. Yeah.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Mistaken
I always day dreaming when taking train. Sigh. What a bad day i had.
Today when i take train, i thought it was Ampang Park station, then i walk out from the train, i felt like strange, when i walk towards the ticket centre, oh, i wondering why Ampang Park got Avenue K. Then i see the sign board. Oh my, the sign board showed i was in KLCC station. I should'nt walk out, it is KLCC station. Sigh, then i missed a train again, i thought i was late to work out out of my surprise, i reached office 8.50am. So early.
Today when i take train, i thought it was Ampang Park station, then i walk out from the train, i felt like strange, when i walk towards the ticket centre, oh, i wondering why Ampang Park got Avenue K. Then i see the sign board. Oh my, the sign board showed i was in KLCC station. I should'nt walk out, it is KLCC station. Sigh, then i missed a train again, i thought i was late to work out out of my surprise, i reached office 8.50am. So early.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Untitled
10th May,
Yesterday was Mother's Day, but i never wish Mother's day to my mum. Since small till now grown-up, i never wish or tell mum's how much i love her. Because,i think my mum should sense that we love her. Actually, i thought that my mum more likes my brothers than me. So, i am quite unhappy, why should she be towards my brother. It is so unfair to me. Thats why i like my daddy more. Because he tends to care of me rather than my mum.
Every times i am unhappy, i won't tell my mum. Because, my mum will never understand bout it. Sigh, i also don't know at home i will talk to whom. Perhaps my pets. Hence, i pampered my dog much. Give him the best that he could have it. Because he is the one that will understand me.
Yesterday was Mother's Day, but i never wish Mother's day to my mum. Since small till now grown-up, i never wish or tell mum's how much i love her. Because,i think my mum should sense that we love her. Actually, i thought that my mum more likes my brothers than me. So, i am quite unhappy, why should she be towards my brother. It is so unfair to me. Thats why i like my daddy more. Because he tends to care of me rather than my mum.
Every times i am unhappy, i won't tell my mum. Because, my mum will never understand bout it. Sigh, i also don't know at home i will talk to whom. Perhaps my pets. Hence, i pampered my dog much. Give him the best that he could have it. Because he is the one that will understand me.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Frightened
8th May,
A very bad beginning for all. I think i scratched people's car. I am terrible frighten. Due to my stuborn, that caused me. I am so scared again. But actually not my fault, just the other car's blocked the road. Omg...feel terrible scared, i can't tell my parent. After all, in the parking , not on the road. I think that fella won't realise..I hope so..Praying and praying for it. Omg.
A very bad beginning for all. I think i scratched people's car. I am terrible frighten. Due to my stuborn, that caused me. I am so scared again. But actually not my fault, just the other car's blocked the road. Omg...feel terrible scared, i can't tell my parent. After all, in the parking , not on the road. I think that fella won't realise..I hope so..Praying and praying for it. Omg.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Exam week
Exam Week arghhhh!!!! Totally stressed! How can i study almost 200++ pages of economic history inside my brain. I couldn't feed any input inside my brain anymore.No!No!No! I don't want to study any historical course anymore. Making my life suffer. Without history, i think i can't survive better. For sure, i don't know what am i going to write inside my answer sheet during the history paper.
Hope i can think of something to write better than leave it blank. Thanks.please..
Hope i can think of something to write better than leave it blank. Thanks.please..
Monday, April 12, 2010
Stress
Feeling so stress, feel like my head is so heavy, can't think of anything. I need something to distract me.
