Christmas night

25th December,

It's 0.12 a.m, when everyone is happy celebrate their christmas night, i feel like crying. I know it is a bit unbelievable as i really want to cry right now. Is an emo night for me. I really don't know why? Perhaps is a feeling as i haven't cry for a long time.

Anyway, Merry Christmas to all my friend!

Snake inside the market.

17th September,


This is the first time i drive my mum to Tesco to buy some groceries. Although is just a small distance from my home to supermarket. But it is meaningful, as my mum frightened by my parking skill. Well, she is more nervous than i do.

I admit that my parking skill still need to be improve but somehow, i didn't hit others car. Isn't that should be praise? Ha-ha. When i walking towards the escalator, i saw one cute little boy hang the snake on his neck. The snake is of course REAL, is not a rubber snake. OK! I'm stunned. I couldn't believe in the mall got a snake. I'm gonna to faint soon.

My body was like freezing, the snake looks awkful and sticky. I could not use other than awkful to describe it. What the.. is going on, having a snake in the middle of the mall? It is dangerous to the pure and innocent citizens such as me. I was curious how come the children can be so excited when see the snake. Fine, i don't care, i continued my way. My mum was searching for my dog's cushion. But, not much cushion can be chose as only left a few. Sigh, sorry that you don't have a new cushion to sleep. It was so crowd inside the mall. Where is those people come from? Perhaps today is holiday. Sigh boring.

We spent almost 3 hours to buy our groceries. So headache.

Craps

Is freaking insane. I don't have any idea to write about the introduction and also literature review. How can i pass up on time? I just sigh+ing but didn't do anything. I just get nothing. Craps.

Tired tired tired tired

18th June,

Yesterday, a bit tired, my eyes getting worse, i think i need to seek for optometrist. I've been doing the cover sheet for almost 4 hours non stop. I felt a bit dizzy and also blur. My colleague asked me to level 16 to retrieve files for PIC on level 2. I going there and asked Serena to retrieve the form, then she asked me to find inside the room.
Fine, then i went to to the room and started to find, but i felt the room was so dusty and felt like it was likely a store room. Sigh, got to dig the file from the dusty room. My eyes getting soar. My tears started to roll down.
Finally, i found the form. Yahooo!Finally i found it!Then i quickly photocopy the form, but i am too stupid to use the photostat machine. I don't know where to press the log in and out button eventhough i knew the password. Luckily, someone passby the machine there, and i seek for his help. That person is Black face people. He is the one always show his black face at me, and felt like i owe him more than a hundred thousands. Gosh, feel like i'm not in a good luck. Okay, fine!Then i quickly to level 2 to hand in the documents. But luck was really not on my side, Mr T. was not there. I am so tired, my eyes getting red, and the tears roll non stop. Sigh, i stand at the corner to wait for Mr. T to come back so i can hands the document to him. One of the RM asked me what i am doing there, I just answered her that i was waiting for Mr. T. Sigh. Then another Mr T. passby and asked me,why am i crying? Why i am crying? Gosh, i am not crying at all. I just said no i'm not crying! But he keep ask me why i cry! Fine i said my eyes got infection or something like that. Okay!
Then i think of handed the document to Mr. T so he can pass to another Mr.T. Then he said, Oh, you helping him to retrieve the form, i also need you to retrieve the form as well. I glanced at him and said I don't want I don't want you go and retrieve yourself please. And he asked why and said got ghost?? I said No, the room such as store room, i don't want to retrieve!

Then, i went back to my level 42 and then sat down and rest! I don't felt like moving to anywhere.Luckily i had another 1weeks plus and i will had my holiday. Yeah.

Mistaken

I always day dreaming when taking train. Sigh. What a bad day i had.

Today when i take train, i thought it was Ampang Park station, then i walk out from the train, i felt like strange, when i walk towards the ticket centre, oh, i wondering why Ampang Park got Avenue K. Then i see the sign board. Oh my, the sign board showed i was in KLCC station. I should'nt walk out, it is KLCC station. Sigh, then i missed a train again, i thought i was late to work out out of my surprise, i reached office 8.50am. So early.

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10th May,

Yesterday was Mother's Day, but i never wish Mother's day to my mum. Since small till now grown-up, i never wish or tell mum's how much i love her. Because,i think my mum should sense that we love her. Actually, i thought that my mum more likes my brothers than me. So, i am quite unhappy, why should she be towards my brother. It is so unfair to me. Thats why i like my daddy more. Because he tends to care of me rather than my mum.

Every times i am unhappy, i won't tell my mum. Because, my mum will never understand bout it. Sigh, i also don't know at home i will talk to whom. Perhaps my pets. Hence, i pampered my dog much. Give him the best that he could have it. Because he is the one that will understand me.

Frightened

8th May,

A very bad beginning for all. I think i scratched people's car. I am terrible frighten. Due to my stuborn, that caused me. I am so scared again. But actually not my fault, just the other car's blocked the road. Omg...feel terrible scared, i can't tell my parent. After all, in the parking , not on the road. I think that fella won't realise..I hope so..Praying and praying for it. Omg.

Exam week

Exam Week arghhhh!!!! Totally stressed! How can i study almost 200++ pages of economic history inside my brain. I couldn't feed any input inside my brain anymore.No!No!No! I don't want to study any historical course anymore. Making my life suffer. Without history, i think i can't survive better. For sure, i don't know what am i going to write inside my answer sheet during the history paper.

Hope i can think of something to write better than leave it blank. Thanks.please..

Stress

Feeling so stress, feel like my head is so heavy, can't think of anything. I need something to distract me.

Eating disorder

10th April,

Early morning, woke up by my dad, and told me that my little boy haven't eat, please feed him! Okay, fine then i continued to sleep. 10 minutes later, i wake up, and feed my little boy. I brush my teeth and continue to study my programming. Around 11 to 12 my brother asked me to go out for breakfast. Okay i just followed him. He drive to Low Yat to buy his computer things. I just followed him, when i cross the bridge to Low Yat, i can see many people, i think those "cheater" under the bridge. They just keep followed you and asked you to donate and so on. I get cheated before. Then, i walked as fast as i could with my brother. Successful to avoid those cheater.

We headed to Low Yat mall. I accompany my brother to buy his cooled and also graphic card and many more. He used around rm800 plus to buy his thing. Well, we're inside the mall around 3 to 4 hours. He keep on bargaining for the best price, while i just stand aside, and watched others looking and bargaining for the best price. Well, then i keep looking at those promoter, i do some analysis while waiting for my brother to bargain for best price. Most of the IT seller are guys and some of them is nice looking. Not bad, at least i waste my time just to look on those nice looking guys. My stomach started to growl. I haven't eat anything since morning. My leg started to tremble. I'm not excited, but i am over hungry.

I give some hints to my brother. He knew it, he just smiled. Wt. I am getting impatient. Started to give him more hints. The seller was so slow, and even talked on the phone for more than a minutes. Didn't he realize he should serve the customer first? What kind of attitude was that? Unprofessional at all. He was slow like a snail okay?
Around 3.30 only we started to walk out from Low Yat. Is a miracle i can stand for long hours. We bought "Nasi lemak" home. Around 5 only i start to eat my so called "breakfast". So irritating enough.